I've been trying to do several things at the same time lately- look for a job I like, write resumes and make translation samples, prepare for another TOEIC test (now that my old test score is invalid), and work on my novel. So far, nothing seems to progress to my liking. I can't help feeling anxious and frustrated. There's so much I have to do, but I can't bring myself to do anything because I'm too depressed. My bf tells me to take it easy because things will eventually work out in the end, but I just feel I can't wait long enough for that. 

I know, if I made my mind up to it, I can get a job as a teacher, but I really don't want to... XP I like children and they bring me smiles and joy, but at the same time, I get easily tired and frustrated when teaching them because I can't get them to understand the way I did. I have to admit that I am not a teaching material- I really suck at explaining things, and am rather impatient, which shows on my face. Also, there's a feeling that if I give up and get a job in teaching, I'll end up stuck doing it for years and years, and not be able to do something I enjoy for the rest of my life. It sounds ridiculous, but it's just a bad feeling I can't get rid of... 

Anyway, I've trying to find a good story worth translating on FictionPress, and came upon my old stories I uploaded when I was a middle school student. So embarrassing! XD Once I recover my password, I'll set that story to private. 

Other than FictionPress, I've been browsing Reddit for good, bed-time horror stories to translate, and there's tons of interesting stories. I've never set my foot in this part of internet, so it's kind of a cultural shock for me, haha... 😄